Adventures in Discovering Hope in Despair
Trigger warning: self-harm Please note that I did not re-read after writing because I just needed to write this, so there will be grammatical errors. Get over it. Writing, is my therapy. Sharing my real-life pain so that others can see they arent alone, is my therapy. Don't ruin this for me. Please. Contrary to... Continue Reading →
But that damn plastic wrap won't budge. An unbreakable barrier. Not an impossible one. But a boss level barrier. I thought I had it all figured out. Then somewhere between taking the leap and flying - I fell atop a cloud on a no-breeze day. And it is here where I sit and watch each piece of my life balance on the precipice of surrender...or fight. I am tired. Am I not enough already?
Did you know that it is possible to not dread waking up on a Monday morning? I didn't. In fact….I am still waiting for the proverbial other shoe to drop. My alarm went off at 7am. I went back to sleep because I wasn't ready to wake up yet. Could barely keep my eyes open... Continue Reading →
To my archnemsis Fear, I have let you control me since the day I was born. And for the past 33 years (34 in 13 days) - I welcomed you with open arms. I let you control my life. I let you yell at me and make me feel worthless. I believed wholeheartedly….that you -... Continue Reading →
I have just been feeling.....off. Adrift in my own thoughts you could say. And over the past few days...I have watched the light flicker in the brewing storm. My gut instinct was to deconstruct every moment in the past 2 weeks that have brought us here. So of course....I happily obliged said gut. It's definitely... Continue Reading →
Finding Anchors in the Storm 